Thank You

Just a moment of thought...

This whole year has been a whirlwind, to say the least. A bundle of productivity, idiocy, curiosity, rebellion, and so much more - and I would not have wanted it any other way.

Yet, through the back of my mind, I constantly hear a little man, no more than a centimeter tall, pestering me about "severed ties" or "unfinished business." I suppose in this short amount of time I cannot do much; however, the memories that accompany many friendly faces will continue living on [until my short term/long term memory wilts]. With that in mind, I can happily look at my current time line of life and smile, knowing that I have accomplished quite a bit, whether it be a success or a failure.

But you know what? I have learned.

and...I am ever so thankful for the individuals who have made a significant impact in my life - I truly am. Rather than disclosing a multitude of names, I would much rather have the reader smile and nod, possibly thinking to himself or herself "maybe she is talking about me." You are right, maybe I am talking about you; and, if I am not, then hell, just keep smiling and thinking that you still made an impact in my life. You will never know, and that, my friend, is the beauty of anonymity.

For those of you whom I literally fall into the same wavelength with, I am happy to know I am not alone with my ideas, opinions, morals, etc. For those of you whom I can rely on a great laugh or a cup o' joe, I am happy to know my addictions for happiness and caffeine do not go unnoticed. And for those of you on the sidelines, who have always been around but never surpassed the boundaries of small talk and gossip, I am happy to know you made my days better, making me realize there are some consistencies in life.

This thought of leaving "home" (whatever that word means) kept me motivated throughout this duration of time; unfortunately, as comfort began spreading throughout my body, taking over every centimeter of my skin and soul, did I come to realize how much I took for granted. Not that I am scared to start fresh as a stranger in an even stranger city; but I am scared of leaving everything so constructive (or destructive) to my character, here, and returning to an old "home" filled with familiar faces but strangers, nonetheless. Strangers, whom I have known and enjoyed in the past, but who have since treaded onward - whatever that may entail.

And such is life, I know, I know. I am being selfish, over analyzing reality and letting my bits of optimism float away like the seeds of a dandelion. However, as these little parachutes carefully float through the air, they will disperse across a distance and rapidly colonize, cultivating a new sea of optimism.

So, here is my "thank you" to everyone who has [or thinks they have] influenced me this year in even the slightest manner. I am happy, happier than I have ever been and it is thanks to y o u..

-Mon