A Culmination, Almost

Here's for a brief debriefing, because I cannot study at the moment.

I. Love. Cal.

There are some amazing people here, and I am happy to have made this decision, even though I haven't slept for more than 3 hours each night.

It's truly a magical place. Perhaps the bay area in general? Either way, it's been a fantastic year (give or take a few emotional turmoils).




So, here's to all the beautiful who made this year happen! :) All of you have so much passion and life within you, that inspires me to keep going no matter how much I hate academia more than half of the time. A petty piece of paper is worth it so as to be enduring the same state of flurry you guys are.

So much love, life and light for you guys and this place in general,

Mon

More on Europa 2011

Having a personal renaissance in Rome and Florence after Brussels...

:)

-Mon

It's nice being happy.

-mon

Forget About Your House of Cards

I don't wanna be your friend
I just wanna be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine

And fall off the table, get swept under

Denial, denial

The infrastructure will collapse
Voltage spikes
Throw your keys in the bowl
Kiss your husband goodnight

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine

Fall off the table, get swept under

Denial, denial
Denial, denial

Your ears should be burning
Denial, denial
Your ears should be burning


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I had dinner with a beautiful individual today. She shared her wisdom as I spilled my soul onto the table amongst, arguably the worst, dining commons dinner imaginable.

A new approach began today: living in the moment [as I used to] and loving freely [as I am not used to].

Here's to appreciating all of the beautiful souls that surround me in Berkeley! <3 You all have been under-appreciated and I sincerely apologize.

So many incomprehensible changes in just a few weeks! I will hopefully be taking plenty of pictures and blogging every aspect of my life when I backpack Europe in 3 weeks.

"Are you ready?" [I ask myself]

... I sure fucking am. I need a vacation, stat! A break from my emotions, routine and current lifestyle. :)

So stoked,
-Mon

In the stacks

Such a monotonous routine, in my eyes. Sitting here, amongst a plethora of strangers, as we all scramble to cram as much information as possible in hopes of refuting it all come the next testing period. Surely, this determination is noteworthy, and I am thankful beyond words to have this opportunity; however, as I step out of the bubble, it also makes me laugh how everything seems so cyclical, routinely... patterned?

My mind is all over the place.

... and I don't know what I want.


Back to Los Angeles, tomorrow, for a bit - and jumping back into my old routine if only for 2 days.


A part of me feels almost silly to return for the weekend; as if everything down there is slowly being packaged into a little box labeled "the past," only seconds away from being shelved away. I feel like i may have been moving backwards...

no worry



Time to start running towards something, anything, up here.

Ready. Set. Go!


Soon, so soon.
-Mon